Everything happens for a reason. I’ve always been a big believer in those words.
I remember even back in high school having a stubborn debate with a good friend of mine over fate and free will where neither of us were willing to budge from our respective points of views.
Personally, if this last year isn’t a validation for me that everything really does happen for a reason, then I don’t know what it would take.
I just didn’t realize that I was already on this train of thought over two years ago when things just weren’t falling into place like they should have.
The amount of times I’m asked why I didn’t end up going to law school like I had planned for so long or “do I still want to” is ridiculous. At first, it annoyed me. Now, it saddens me.
Because it has been a dream of mine for oh so long.
Or as if like a light switch, I decided one night that it wasn’t an aspiration of mine anymore. If things went my way, of course I’d like to be studying law now and be a lawyer in the near future.
Life just doesn’t work that way though.
Yes, I have wallowed about it many times over. Who wouldn’t over an ambition they worked towards for so long?
It wasn’t until a couple of months ago though, while thinking over this past year, that it clicked for me.
I was assured that yes, things really do happen for a reason.
That law school didn’t work out at this given time for a reason. That He knows and plans all.
This past year has been a challenge in ways more than I can explain. But it has reassured me that if I had started law school when I had planned/wanted, it wouldn’t have been possible for me to continue.
And while I can’t even fathom the fact, I’m sure that it would have been even more devastating to discontinue midway.
But He knew better. I just didn’t.
Is it still a dream of mine? Yes. Is it meant to happen? Only time will tell.