Have you ever gotten the feeling that you were meant to do something? Well, I keep get the feeling that I wasn’t meant to be a lawyer. And that’s quite unfortunate because it is something I have wanted and ASPIRED to become since I was in the eighth grade.
It’s funny how we plan for something, and something totally different happens. Or we are so sure of something, but God has something else in store for us. I’ve noticed that happening so many times on a much smaller scale than this. Or we try our hardest, and sometimes that still isn’t good enough. Because the truth is, sometimes our hardest efforts aren’t enough. But that’s life.
I’m not saying hard work doesn’t pay off, but it may be in a different form than we anticipate or want.
So many little things have happened along the way that have gone against me leaning in the direction of law school. I do believe everything happens for a reason.
Like seriously the ONLY time ever I don’t want a snow storm, we will probably end up getting one. The snow hasn’t started yet, but earlier this afternoon my LSATs for tomorrow were cancelled because of the impending snow storm.
Virginia is supposed to get hit with around 30 inches (and they already had 7+ inches about an hour ago)! While we are only supposed to get 8 – 14 inches, I’m not even sure how likely that is to happen considering it hasn’t even started yet. I have a feeling the storm will just bypass our area…. which would be a bummer not only because I LOVE snow, but because after all the studying and prepping for the LSATs in the last few weeks, they are cancelled! I have devoted so much time to it, which is very hard with being a full time student and working as well (which is another thing considering I picked February over last December to retake the exam thinking about how hard it would be will school and exams). I’m supposed to be notified in about a week about my options so we’ll see what happens. At this point, I just want them over with. All I am saying is, we better get a real snow storm.
If they were just isolated instances, I would for sure overlook them… but all I know is I need to do some serious thinking and evaluate my options. But then again, nothing worth having ever comes easy.
No matter what happens, at least I know I tried my best. And that’s really all I can ask of myself.
Earlier, in haste and frustration, I was telling my mom that I feel like I wasted the past eight years of my life working towards my aspiration. But now, after a few hours to ‘calm down’, I’ll take it as another life lesson
Update (11:03 PM): I should have apparently written this earlier because it just started snowing.
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